Spoken Word: Silent Lies

Below is a little spoken word I wrote in the summertime. I was inspired by my friend who is so into poetry. I had no intentions of writing this poem, but this is what came out. Hope you too can see how powerful God is, and note that he's capable of doing all things. No one can hold you back, not even yourself. The harder it gets, the harder you fight. The heavier the burdens, make it your business to run to the altar and hand it over to God. Hope you enjoy!

"Silent Lies"

Your lies spoke volumes

In the midst of silence, you whispered. 

Screamed so loud, yet you tried to divide the picture, of me.

Had me scattered like glass.

You see I was created in his image. 

You are the slaughter. 

I'm his daughter, and 

You, you are beneath me. 

You're nothing more 

Nothing more than the man

Who stands before me 

Convincing me to believe his lies in disguise.

I've fallen into the depths of the sea, drowning. 

Gasping for air

Left in despair, hopeless.
 choking 

When you left me breathless
You allowed my father to keep me desperate
For his will
For his way

No longer could the pain
seep through my face
and leave me bound
In my mess

A picture of my past reflects 

The insecurity that bled through my pores

Inking the path I was destined to walk on

You paved that I ground I stopped on

Surrounded by chains

Enclosed by knots 

His blood prevailed 

He made the paved the path I walk on

I am free. 

Who freed me? 

Jesus. 

He destroyed all you tried to make of me

What you promised to take from me 

Breaking me, Shaking me

Only my God can break me down to build me up

Now beauty bleeds through my pores 

He has restored 

Your lies are condemned

His truth speaks louder than your lies that are silenced

*Viewers please note that you are welcomed to share any constructive criticism, if need be. As the author I feel I can only make this piece better by hearing your voice. I established that spoken words are very passion filled and intense. No one can express better what I intend to convey to the audience  better than I, but please viewers please give this some thought and comment! 

Pray Without Ceasing

These past weeks I been endlessly praying and asking GOD to have HIS way. The more I pray I notice the little things GOD can do in only a matter of time. I was on my knees, first giving the lord complete adoration and then allowing him to move freely. As I was praying three two young women came to my mind and one older women. One week before that three other people came to me mind, two older women and a young man. I don't know their circumstances wholly, every little thing they been through, or even if they have common circumstances. All I knew was that the lord layed them on my heart and I just prayed for them hard. 

*A thought came to my mind about when I first started out and I was lost, hopeless, and suicidal. I had no idea if anyone knew my circumstance. I literally felt like no one can help and the only escape would be suicide...

A few months ago I was talking to one of the women God placed in my life. We were laughing, joking, and telling stories. Somehow the conversation led to how we met. I really didn't remember, but she reminded me. She said, "I was sitting with ______ and I looked over and seen your arm. I said "Jesus" and I prayed hard." (These might not be the actual words, but you get the point) Now this was before this women knew me. She didn't know why I cut my arm, or what I went through in my everyday life.The fact that she said she prayed for me was so deep. That moment sort of changed my mindset. These people that GOD brings to my mind need him just like I NEED him. I can be selfish and just pray for myself or my circumstance, but the lord is just showing me that the people that he lays on my heart have a purpose just like I.

The Lord has been showing me that I can't selfishly always think about myself when praying. I'm always like Lord can you do this for me? But, I fail to remember that other people are in need as well. When I can sincerely lift others up in prayer, I feel lighter. One thing I will never forget is how others prayers got me where I am today.